I'm just glad that getting myself engaged in dA activities has helped me get my mind off. Gettin' on with faving the awesome concepts deviants come up with, and giving them valid comments, and they replying me with a sense of satisfaction that their works are appreciated - It's a whole world altogether. I wish this was the only kind I needed to live with, but fuckin' reality pesters me throughout. It's become a slit-throat botheration. Everything & everybody I gotta face is gettin' so harder by the minute. Every passing day I curse my father for bringing me to this cursed world, dragging me throuogh this thick of shitholes and the bloody basterd is adamant to take me down with him. (I'm sorry for the disturbing language I'm using against a father - most of you are lucky to have a loving and caring father - atleast I'm sure my bro n4bi1
is one of the luckiest
- You sure are blessed man, proud of you.)
I wish I didn't have to live by his name. That was a key reason I wanted to rename my dA account 'cause my nick carries that fucked up name. I do not want to be remembered as his successor. I want to live up to what he shouldn't have become... a scumbag who would go to any lengths for his gains. I hope he gains what he wants in life, so that he could relax and take a look back at what he has lost on his way. I don't think that'll ever happen - He is man who has no remorse. God, I only pray this once more - please do not bring this fate upon even the worst of my enemies...
So back to dA. I'm currently an active staff of DDexpress
. Thanks for the opportunity guys, makes me feel like I've achieved an above-the-basic member status on dA. Well, nothing much then. Gettin' back at tryin' to get some sleep
Good Mornin' everybody!
P.S. I love you, Amma and Mollu. If I ever get back alive out of here, I'll never leave your sides.